Tuesday, October 28, 2014

I got this

 I'm not one to post a bunch of non- maternity pictures of myself, but these mean a lot to me. The day we took them, I had time to fix my hair and face without being in a big hurry(Drew was napping!). I'm not even dressed up here, but I felt comfortable in my own skin and proud of myself as Drew's mom. I feel like these pictures show it.
 As a new mom, yet a veteran in some ways, I get caught up in the "have to do," "have to be here and there," "must get dinner on the table!" In the every day stress, it's easy to feel I'm in a permanent state of catch up to get it all done, the right way, on time, and so on. Kitchen mess, unmade bed, clean clothes waiting to be folded, and mama needs a nap(or a minute with a magazine and a still hot cup of coffee)  first, please.Yesterday I went to a baby shower for one of my best friends, and I swear I felt like I was the only one chasing after an ever moving baby. Drew fussed and wiggled out of my arms more times than I could count. She banged toys on a glass table, yanked toys from other kids, and spit her food out on our host carpet(sorry Amy!).  At one point I felt my face getting red and I wondered if everyone else could feel my embarrassment. I know she's a baby, but I took on the responsibility of her behavior. Oh wait, I'm a parent. That's what we do right? In addition to the general fluster, I felt messy. I had hurried out the door to get to the shower and was more concerned with Drew's pony tail than my head of hair. I was going to a party with impeccably kept friends(shout out to all my pretty ladies!) and felt like a frazzled mommy mess.
Which brings me here.
 You know, I just feel like these pictures are me owning it. Drew sitting comfortably on my hip and you know what? I got this. I am mama. I am working mama. Drew is well loved and that's really all that matters. I may doubt myself some days but I have caught on to this mama thing and I am doing it pretty good. Tomorrow I may fight with Drew over brushing her teeth or have to tell her "no" ten million times over every little thing. She may fuss over nothing and I may cry tomorrow and forget that I've got this. So here is my reminder. And yours too. 
We got this mamas.
And Drew, when you're reading this some day:
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
2Corinthians 12:9
(Because "I got this" comes from someone greater)

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