Knock knock, anyone still there?

 

My mom told me that someone asked about my blog recently and when I would begin again.  I felt like saying when I get a grip on life. I am here tonight. Still no handle on life. Frankly, I don't know that I ever will!

(Insert picture of me in the typical trending mom tee captioned "need more coffee," "#momboss," "tired like a mother," etc., etc., etc.)

 I finished grad school! (Hence why I have a spare minute to be present here.)

 So a quick catch up on Greer baby: 

She's 1! (And I never got through month three of her monthly stickers:(#badmom)

She crawled around month 9 and is walking as of last week.

She enjoys grabbing her sister's hair, pretending she wants to hand you a toy and then snatching it away, and walking the same route in the house like an old lady at the mall. She has a signature walk- it's like a mix between a zombie and a salsa dancer. She says "dada," "nana," and very rarely "mama." She is happy and smiling 90% of the time.

Drew loves Greer so much. She gets easily annoyed with her, obviously, but generally she loves her. She loves to tickle, squeeze, and make her laugh. Greer's feelings are mutual. She thinks Drew hung the moon, or light fixtures in general because she's pretty fascinated with those as well.

 Drew just finished up 3 year pre-k. She loved her school and teachers. I could never express my gratitude for her sweet school and all that she learned. Just this weekend she told Andy, "Daddy, you're not the boss of everyone, only Jesus." Tell em, girl.

This girl is so darn smart, but I am learning you have to be careful about what you say and how you say it. Drew says the best stuff all the time and this is something else that sticks out..

I ask Drew to buckle herself into her car seat every day. It's her way of helping me move faster and I think it's good for fine motor skills (Am I right teacher friends??) The actual process takes her a good minute. The other day she was getting ticked off with her seat belt and said "Mommy, it's not coperating!) I mean, hello, did my baby just say cooperating?? One minute Drew, and I'll get that stinkin seat belt to coperate for you.

 Andy and I celebrated 9 years of marriage at the beginning of May. 9 years is so long! We've been through some real thick, but more thin. I love him more today than yesterday and the many days before. I miss him more than ever as well. As I write this, he is on a plane to California for the third week in a row. He has been traveling each week basically since January. For the most part, he's only gone two to three nights during the week, but due to some changes at work, he's been gone the entire work week the past month. We are thankful he always makes it home for the weekends and we pray that he can get some time at his actual office so we can visit him all summer.

Andy, we love you! You are the BEST! The best!!

 Speaking of 9 years, I can't help but think about how fast time flies and how fast these babies are growing up. As I was cleaning up the camper while Greer napped earlier today, I thought about how one day, I will be picking up after two teenage girls. I was thinking about how one day, I will be spending the holiday weekend with them knowing they won't be going home with me, but will be going back to college, or to their own families. 

Heartbreaking stuff and yet, I did it to my own mother. Growing up is wonderful and sad all wrapped up in one.

I say that, but I don't take their growing up years for granted. I pray hard the Lord gives us all many years to watch each other grow. Time can feel cruel with its haste to grow up squishy babies, but oh how I want them to live and grow and learn to love even more than they know how to now.

Some days this motherhood can be so overwhelming and even underwhelming, and I forget to pray for His plan in it all. I recently found myself wondering how God will bring forth His glory from my little family. In the haste of this life, I don't want to forget to pause often and reflect on His path.

So here is my reminder and yours too, pause and reflect on His path. I'm going to go do that now:)

Thanks for reading if you made it this far!